:'(

Today is the fifth day of fasting in the month of Ramadhan, I'm so sad, sad to see it all happening in front of me, all that i feared happened...like the invisible small ant, that's parable myself now, completely wrong.. i'm afraid, sad, angry, disappointed...
I want to admonish them, like I did before..but I know it'll be useless, since I'm nobody..
But why should them? people who are the most I care about? 
I'm so sorry ya Allah, please forgive them..
I'm afraid talk too much now, i'm afraid to judge others..I cannot do anything now, I'm afraid to be rebellious child, but I'm also afraid ignoring your commands.. All that I can do, is just surrender to you.. Forgive us ya Allah...  Aamiin...